Decluttering
My name is Abby. I am an intern with LOSS as I work towards a Masters in Social Work at Case-Western. I am also a suicide loss survivor, having lost my husband, Kevin, in September, 2015. For a relatively messy person, I hate clutter and I hate things. Not all things, just the pointless physical […]
I Would Have Moved Earth for Him
My name is Courtney and I am a survivor of my brother’s suicide. My brother’s name is David Garrett Carter and he left us on July 21st, 2018. He was the third child born to our parents. I am the oldest, then our sister Dava, him, and finally our baby sister Casey. We were all […]
Another Mile Marker
Cassandra is a suicide loss survivor, her brother died in August, 2011. She is also a volunteer with LOSS. My brother, Eric, died by suicide in August of 2011. Eight years. Eight years separated us, from his birth to mine. Now it’s been eight years since my brother Eric died. There are two weeks between […]
The Life I Missed While I Was Grieving…
As I am emerging from my comatosis state of grief, the world looks different. I can appreciate a beautiful sky or explore life events without a persistent pang of, “Kevin should be here. He would love this.”
Rich
by John. John’s oldest & coolest friend died by suicide in 2010. A.’s father is fading now. Color is edging out of his face, and he leans harder on his cane. He would interrupt here to politely insist that this is immaterial; he’s been dead eight years. But he endures. I don’t see him often enough, […]
Sometimes I Still Scream
by Denise Meine-Graham, CT: Loss Survivor and Founding Director of Franklin County Local Outreach to Suicide Survivors Hard conversation today. How does someone say the things they do even after I tell them my son killed himself? Shut up already! I almost had a full meltdown after that phone call. My husband is loving and […]
My Wedding Anniversary
My name is Abby. I am an intern with LOSS as I work towards a Masters in Social Work at Case-Western. I am also a suicide loss survivor, having lost my husband in September, 2015. As my wedding anniversary approaches this month, I struggle once again with how to honor my husband and take care […]
Grief Does Not Look Like Math Homework
by John. John’s oldest & coolest friend died by suicide in 2010. I can’t remember exactly, but it was probably 3 months or so after she had died… The chaos had eased, and whatever things a normal adult has to go through were thinkable again. Days and places still almost vibrated with nervous energy and […]
When It Catches Me
by Luigia Bailey. Luigia is a volunteer with LOSS. Her brother Danny died by suicide. This was written on February 25, 2019. It still catches me often… Sometimes multiple times daily. An unpredictable, fleeting thought or image catches me and transports me back to that day, or a day years prior. A memory becomes reactivated, […]
Three days bereavement?!
My name is Abby. I am an intern with LOSS as I work towards a Masters in Social Work at Case-Western. I am also a suicide loss survivor, having lost my husband in September, 2015. When someone you love has died by suicide, returning to work may seem impossible. What may seem even more impossible […]
